Well lookie here i actually got on here lmao

loved all of you guys' deviations man you guys are freakin talented like u have no idea how truly awesome u are

well i know i havent talked to you guys in ages but i'm gonna try and fix that i may have a lot to do but i shouldnt neglect u guys u were allways there for me and i want you to know that i'm here if ever u need someone

as far as art i've been knitting if that counts i've made a few scarves and i just made a really cool set of fingerless gloves i'm workin on legwarmers and a shirts i'll be sure to post pics tommorow

i got a laptop (bought it myself) lols i actually have a job i've been there for 10 months now !!! so since i have a laptop i'm allowed on it 24/7 and have no excuse not to update on here and talk to you guys

i graduated!! halfway through junior year but it doesnt really count i took a test to get out of finishing and so now i'm takin college courses oh and i'm gettin my drivers license in a couple weeks finally

also i'm moving...... again surprize surprize and i'm supposed to be goin to italy it just depends on a couple things we might not get to go because my mom has a heart condition and they dont have cardiologists so if they can't take care of her we cant go but like i said it depends the military might decie she isnt at enough risk to tell my dad that he cant go

oh and he's getting deployed soon after we get wherever we're goin so he's gonna be in afghanistan for 12 - 15 months

as usual i'm havin boy trouble no worries i didnt fall head over heels for another guy and no one hurt me i just have a tendency to make things complicated i have a boyfriend i work with my ex who i went out with for 7 months and he's still crazy about me most of the guys at work like me i have guys that i'm very good friends with that i dont live near anymore tryin to get me to go out with them because they apparently like me and have liked me for a while but never told me because they were to scared or shy i have two ex's that want me to go back out with them and am still madly in love with the one person i can't seem to have oh and things with my boyfriend are hella awkward because i'm moving i dont even know why i told him that i'd go out with him when ihave no intention of carrying on a long distance relationship with him so i think i'm goin to be single soon i'll let you know

oh and things with my mom are about the same i talk to her when i call her but she doesnt call me i called her on thanksgiving and her birthday and christmas and what i got in return was a voicemail 5 days after christmas telling me that she was on a cruise on her birthday and thats why she didnt call me oh and she didnt call me on my birthday either just sent an expensive gift (is that supposed to make up for stuff??) i dunno plus she's more than 2 years behind on her child support we started garnishing her waiges and i guess she quit her job cause the checks stopped coming and thats the only way that can happen so now that they arent getting money from her she has her license suspended let this be a lesson to us in case we end up divorced and with kids pay your freakin child support or u lose all your privilages child uspport is not something the child earns you have a responsibility to help take care of that child weather he/she wants to visit you or talk to you or not

in case you didnt know i chose to stop seeing my mom or talk to her until she could speak with me like an adult about all the things wrong between us and how i get repaid is no child support and seclusion from half of my family cause i can't visit them if my mom doesnt pay her child support i have to wait till i'm 18 and i have like no life here i have like 3 friends outside of work and i pretty much never leave the house i'm pretty much secluded from the rest of the world and it doesnt help that my parnets dont trust me outside of the house they think i'm goin to go get pregnant or something because i apparently have sex with a whole bunch of people i mean seriously i got sick and threw up a few nights in a row and they called me into their room and asked me if there was a chance it could be morning sickness first off it started at like 6 at night and second it was all the next two days not just a few hours in the morning oh and one time i came home with a hickie and my mom tried to take me to a gynacologist cause she thought i was having sex and just for the record i still haven't

also the group roadtrip will have to go on without me seeing as i can't do anything like that till i'm 18 and i'll most likely be in europe by then but we'll have to see about doing another one in a few years cause i really miss all of you and want to see you again

i am going to go into the coast guard for 6 years in order to get schooling and while i'm doing that i will be volunteering at different places where i can work with animals because thats all i really want to do my boss is currently trying to help me find a way around the coast guard but i think its smarter to get 10 free years of college than pay for 10 years plus i'll have a steady job food housing and all that good stuff and i'll get to live at the beach all the time lol

well thats about it for tinight i'm wiped out i'll write more soon i promise and i'll upload pics asap love and miss you guys